five more days

ANd I GET to MOVE IN to my new house!

It was dylan's last day. no that was yesterday, he left today, so now it's just me and candy. at the candy store. I'm at the box office tonight. woot. I actualy might go hang out with Candy after the show. I am doing Flourette on thursday and the Widow to end the season. it's crazy how fast this summer has gone by. I've met some of the most amazing people, and going to miss all of them this year. dave and natalie are some of the most genuine, honest, nice people I know, and I am so incredibly grateful for Lisa and Jeff taking a chance on me. I've loved working out here. West is so cool, because despite how small the town is, it really is international. I've talkied to people from London and germand- anytime someone from england comes into the store it makes me very happy/sad.

Clare and I might get to go down to the portland rennaisance festival and help out natalie's friend- or at least natalie is going to ask if her boss needs any help. It would be cool.

I blocked out my schedule for school today. GAG ME. I am going to have no time, especially since I'm working for costumes and stuff. ugh. and once everyone is moved in we have to have the awkward roommate rules talk. Four more shows after tonight, it's so insane.

I do not want to pack. I'm excited to move into the house, but I would love like-two days with no agenda and nothing to do. I have to email my professors because next tuesday I have to get my wisdom teeth filled. Luckily I don't have to have them pulled.

Okay so dylan didn't have anywhere to stay last night, so I offered my couch. It was funny as heck. he fixed the shower though, so that was good. candy came over for a bit and watched trashy TV with us. Secret life of the American Teenage and GREEK!!!! yay GREEK!!!! I dont know. MY mind is all over the place, clearly. I have got so much to do this week:
pack,
clean apartment,
go through food and decide what to bring back to the house (it'll be super fun having all the stuff mom bought for me at the beginning of the summer) (It looks like it's about to pour by the way)
what else do I have to do?
read wintertime
read my bible
memorize/find a monologue
and find a song to do for clare's show
ummmmmmmm........... dread having cavities filled.

I miss my family.

parties

without asking your housemates aren't cool. not even asking- just tell us. Ugh.. I hate being the awkward one. it will be so much easier when we all live there and are moved in and can function without gigantic facebook threads.

in other news, I didn't eat a single piece of candy at the store today. yay for me. and I have to start packing to leave. Not excited about that. I feel like I havent had a break since February. (february is a funny way to spell it. and a funny word). I just want three days where I don't have to do anything. except sleep and eat and shower and be lazy. I'm excited to move into the house though--- yay for houses.

new year?

well we've got eight shows left.

BUT. Today was the best day of work ever!

Diann comes in while Dylan and I were working, and she goes "It's such a gorgeous day" and dylan says "Let's just close the store and goes to the lake". We all jsut laughed. THen Diann goes "Hmmm....." Dylan and I look at each other like, "WHAT???". Well they did It. It was like a secret mission or somthing. DIann was like "Okay here's what we do. I want you to put a sign on the door that says "Closed for EMergency employee meeting (at the lake) Back at six"." We called candy, left the store at two forty five---got lost on the way there--but spent an hour and a half out on the lake. It was Wonderful!!! got to go swimming--- friggin cold--but awesome.

I loved having my family here. It was awesome. firehole was amazing. And seeing grand go off, I'm glad I made mom stay and wait.

Wow- people are cursing at each other a lot right now. slightly annoying and yeah.

But we want to get a group over to firehole on sunday. Oh and yeah---dylan and I are writing a musical about the store. haha.

Almost back to school

eek. I need to figure out what I;m doing with my life. Candy store is good. I get to eat taffy every day. Have to actually.

I need to make a bucket list. But, LIke, of plays. Plays I need to be in, and or roles I want to play. CLare and I are walking tonight. And I need to CLean my aprtment. Because mama and laura and Katie are coming out.

Oh. I got my package. Thanks mom and I love you.

everyone and their mother is geting married

EVeryone and their freaking mother is getting engaged. Or married. Seriously.

oh except me. ANd I sort of would need a guy. UGH.

dang it

seeing pics from the gathering. I miss that part of my life so much. So much. like... it almost hurts my heart. I forget how big of a part of m y life it was..... and now.... it just..... isn't anymore. I miss youth stuff. A lot. Youth gatherings, leading worship. leading youth gatherings.....

first day of august

RABBIT!
SO I'm sitting in the box office right now. Great fun. Last night was the first standing ovation for chaps! Natalie and I went on a walk this morning. just around town. Worked at the candy store as usual. CLimbed some shelves in the back. FInally got my rent stuff in the mail. Late, I know. Bad, but oh well. It will be better in the house.

It's really hard being separated from eveyone this summer. NOt emotionally, just planning wise. Like Mana and KIngs' wedding for example. Details on that. Like, It's been hard coming back from london and then having 2 wek turn around and coming out here. BUT. IRELAND> I"M STOKED>
VIrginia city tomorrow. sorry my grammar is so bad. I"m writing as fast as I can. We amped up pre-show by changing dixie chicks a lot. It sounds cool. The wedding round up is great. I have to do laundry and clean tomorrow, but we're going to virginia city. Maybe I will clean after church and forget laundry again. I dont know when I work on monday. If it's morning or evening. Hopefully morning.

I love the people out here. I'ts great. It's been a really good experience so far. One month left. I absolutly love CHAPS. It's great fun and I never get bored watching it. We get the paino pack monday so I will be able to play alot better then.

WOw my grammar and spelling have been horrid this entry. WHatever.

Working out

started going on walks with clare and Natalie. it's great. Also.


STANDING OVATIon for chAPS LAST Night!!!

wow. I am so bad at this one

Okay, I have no internet access at my apartment, so I can't update this regularily. and when I do get online, I have to check more important things. Like facebook and fmylife. lol.

what's gone wrong so far in Chaps:

Kenn and Joe's Chaps have broken
The Waterbottle/flask has nearly fallen off the stage
Kenn had to re start the Cool water number like, 3 times. it was funny

Biggest house and best show last wednesday,

I'm essentailly working full time at the candy store. Which is good. money is good

Um..... I don't know. Life is good I guess. I cleaned today. ANd worked on my scrapbook.

stuff

The show last night..... wierd. Music was horrible.

Things that have gone wrong so far. wrong as in funny:

Kenn's CHaps breaking.
Joe's Chaps breaking.
THe flask nearly falling off the stage.

I forgot my feather duster one night.
Clare went on with her Concessions apron on... haha.
THe ground row was turned over more than once.

sorry I've been so crappy at this one

I HATE NOT HAVING INTERNET IN MY APARTMENT. there's really nothing I can do since the wierless is configured to Dave and NAtalie's Apartment/phone line. Which means I'm online everywhere but my apartment. so at the theatre, when I"m not doing something, I'm at the computer. which makes me feel like a computer hog. anyway.

new things.

I did laundry last night.
and jammed with Clare and Dave.
My apartment door will randomly open if i don't slam it shut.
The walls are not soundproof.
CLare and I went out for Pizza
CHAPS opens wed. night
THe biggest audience we've had so far was our opening night.
Hopefully things will pick up, but luckily our tiny audiences have been wonderful audiences.
I hated street, at first, but it's been getting better.
Misquitos suck.
I need a second Job, still. SO hopefully on break today I will go to some of the places I've seen help wanted signs at. The thing is, I hate applying for multiple things at once. Because Im always pretty optimistic and would hate to turn anyone down. Anyway, I should go. missing everyone.

I should get my new phone soon. Hopefully I like it. But I dont really want one with a pull out keyboard. So I might take it back.

At the Playhouse

Well I've been here a week, by myself, officially. Cable got put in 2 days ago. CLare and I had a "Tudors" marathon last weekend, so that was fun. My apartment is good. KInd of cold at times. I'm really excited for things to start picking up. SO far, I'm covering three roles in the Melodrama. A lot in JUne, but I hope I get to do more. We're starting our variety show stuff and have a performance on saturday.

My internet at the Apartment is not working. SO I'll post as often as I can. Let me know if you want my address. I would LOve it if people would visit.

call me, text me., whatever if you need to get ahold of me.

From One Adventure to the Other

Well. I got back from London 2 weeks and 2 days ago. And tomorrow morning I head off to West Yellowstone for the summer. How crazy is that? Almost too crazy. Because I have barely gotten a chance to settle back into things here.

Not that I want to settle. I was talking to mom when I first got back, and she said "I think you're over Snohomish". It's a really wierd thing for me to think about. I mean, Snohomish has been my home for the past...what....fifteen years? And then, when I went off to college, PLU became my home too. Not so much because of Parkland, but definately because of the people. And now, I'm off to West to find a new home. My first place truly to live on my own. I don't have the UC to rely on for food, I won't have my parents an hour and a half away from me. I won't have a car.

So this year, I will have lived in three-no four- different places... all without having a break and being at home: PLU in January: London Thru May: Home for 2 weeks.... but I don't really feel like I've been at home, because Ive been going back and forth to PLU, and unpacking and anticipating moving and.... whatveer: then West Yellowstone until September: Then our house until December.

I need down time, which I haven't really ahd yet. I feel like tonight I might cry myself to sleep. I have a problem crying in front of people. I don't like doing it, at least not at home. I hate appearing weak in front of my parents. So I hold it all in, and appear apathetic and distant instead. It's rather sucky, actually. I've also really only cried once about London. My first night home I cried myself to sleep. I'm happy to be with my family, but I was jet lagged and almost started arguing with dad and it was....well I cried. and since then it's been go-go-go non stop. I havent gotten a chance to breathe and realize: I'm not in London. and yes, I actually was there. I loved in London for 3 and a half months. How lucky am I? Incredibly lucky. And Now I have this amazing opportunity waiting for me in Montana. I get to be apart of the inaugural season for the Pinecone Playhouse AND it's my first paid gig. which is really cool. And the pieces for it all kind of fell into place. I would have been an idiot to turn it down. It was also a test for me to see, am I actually committed to theatre? By going, I feel like I'm proving to myself that I am.

At the same time. I don't know whether I'm going to be able to go to Katie's graduation. Which rips my heart out. That sounds silly and overdramatic. But I feel absolutely crap about it. I really want to be here for it. And father's day and Laura's birthday. And I won't be. What does that mean? It scares me, because it makes me think what mom said is true. I'm over Snohomish. Not over it, per say, but I really feel like It's not a prioirty for me to come home and be in snohomish over the summer. I'm not the same person that i was when I left for college three years ago. It's hard for me to fit this new me into the mold and routines of who I was then. So no, It's not a priority to be in Snohomish anymore. Which is scary to me. Does that make me an adult? does that make me a grown up? WHat will that mean for next year? will I come home? Am I done at home? Am I done being with my family...as a core member of the family? That almost makes my stomach sick to think about. I could care less about snohomish. And, although I hardly ever take the time to tell them, being away from my family for another three months is going to be really hard. I love laughing with ym family around the dinner table, and spending time together at home. quoting movies. dumb stuff that I all too often take for granted.

Since Katie is spending the night in my room, I won't cry tonight. Not tomorrow either, because my mom and Laura will be there with me. Maybe the night after. I don;t know. Probably when Mom leaves. I am really excited to see what the summer will bring, but really scared to leave home, truly leave home and be on my own for the first time in my life.

Wish me luck!